Taking A break..

Well
have been buzy preparing for exam this whole week
to be honest my head is a mush right now
Been having many weird nightmares lately
which i concluded source from my constant
new addcition to school rumble haha
You know whats nice about it
its nice because you can really somehow
relate the story to our daily ramblings
and that is what makes it sooooo nice
and the plus point is its hillarious

Anyway
everyday the same thing
come home open book study
memorise latihan memorise latihan

well enough of that
today i am taking a one day break
from all the studying
which is also due to a flu
i got after going for the YE final convention

till then

Study Frenzy

Last few days b4 exam

i have on my turbo mode in studying

Besides that

only thing i have been doing is

drawing and watching sch rumble

in intervals after finishing every 1 or 2 babs of sejarah

or else

100% just focus in studying can kill you

or at least can kill me haha

anyway

i draw a picture not long b4 i post this final post

at least until exam is over

tell me what u think of it

...Fed Up...

Internet has been down lately
i am curently on9 on a secondary number
which is obviously more expensive
Haiz.....

My life has reverted to what it was
being unable to fall asleep
trashing around my bed every night
the night has never been so long
everytime the light goes off
its a battle of patience not to shout or scream
in boredom and anoyance
due to the fact i cant fall asleep
Haiz....

Today
went to school
for hari KOKO
i lead the scout troop of 7 people to march
right into the frying pan

well its no wonder
my troop is called

7th Georgetown South

After all of that crap
i took care of the scouts booth for awhile
and then vanishing my self to the bus stop
waiting for the bus to go to my MTG place
well okok
its not really to the mtg place
its to my hse behind there
well it did came
i boarded the bus
with pheng sheng,chong yen and tze lun
i manage to con them
saying the distance between my hse to
the MTG place is near.....
well to me its near la
cos i walk to tuition which is further than dat
but to them
well it was hell hahahaha

They finally gave up half way and called
charmaine to fetch them up to her house
......she can drive a car.....WTF!!!
Upon reaching the MTG place
i recalled something
THE KNN CAMP THEME HAS CHANGE !!!!
what the hell man
now i have to replan the design of the banners again
haiz.......

I got a glimps of the banner the guides drew
which was the welcome banner
its well....very PCGHS like
no offence to anybody
but its not a bad thing actualy
its actually a very good thing
only thing dat bugs me is that
it doesnt go with the NEW camp theme
which was well

....GREEK MYTHOLOGY....

Haiz

My mood was well
swinging here and there
getting aggitated very easily today
especially in MTG
i wonder why
most prob becos
i have to replan the banner design again
hahahah

While at the MTG
the guides ask me to buy cloth
which if i am not wrong
is :
8 1x3 meter banner of black colour
6 1x1 meter cloth of white,blue and purple respectively

well
they told me that
the banner cloth is rm2.50 a meter
but knowing what a lazy ass i am
if the rm2.50 no such colout
i will skrew it and buy the rm4.50 wan hahaha
they obviously dont want dat to happen ler
cos well its gona be a dent in their pocket
and they wont acept if i subsidise for them
becos well they will feel guilty later
so i say to them
okokokok la haiz i go search
(which means if i cannot find i will buy the rm4.50
cloth then "LOSE" the reciept and so they dont know
the price and scam them say rm2.50 nya so they dont
luan too much hahahaha =)
p.s i know its a stupid thing to do)

Anyway
charmaine was kind enought enough
to tumpang me all the way to the laksa tiam
where i start my journey home
In the car
she ask a few question's which i have been
frequently ask b4
which are.....

"why dont u ask ur parents to fetch you"

The answer to that is well....unknown
i guess its just me to prefer walking than
troubling my parents to no end
i have a motto about walking which is well weird

"PPl tulan walking go wait for bus,
"I tulan wait for bus so i walk home..."

swt rite
Now i am back home
my body is starting to ache
due to todays full day workout
and yesterdays all out working in temple
and tmo i am gona all out all day long in temple summore
if i survive this
hahahahaha good la

till then

-[Will you guys just stop fighting and work together!!!Its a collective effort of your fighting that is weakening what you care for...(if u care for it at all)...the most and not the external attack on it so WAKE UP and GET MOVING stop DAYDREAMING and MOVE ON!!!!]-

-[Scouts are brothers to all without regarding Race,Religion or Nation]-

The faces i miss so much

Been seeing so much lately
been experiencing soo much
causing me to remember loads of stuff
i never wanted to remember
No matter how sweet the memory may be
it is not worth the pain that comes after
i had once said

There is no Love if there is no memory
there is no Love when there is nothing to remember
there is no Love when there is no contact to the person
direct or indirect
both will ignite or keep on a feeling for the person

and i have always come to believe
that this quote is all so true
as long as i dont see,i dont contact and i forget
bout the person
i can forget bout her

...BUT....

Life has been not the same
thinking bout the times
that was once all so sweet
But all has come and pass
We have all left and walk our own path
seeing back not the pass we all had
seeing back not the times spent as a team

Life has been a pain in a butt
everytime i tought i have finally let go
of those dear memories
it always find away to rope me back in
may it be shaun or anyone else...mostly shaun
(which i find really amusing)
Seeing the smiles when walking down the hill
has open a domain in me that i never knew
a domain which my mind tried to close all this while
a domain which contain memories
seal up by the neurons of my brain
forgotten by the sands of time

Its not that i dont want to reply you
its not that i dont want to make jokes in front of you
its not that i want to be a stone in front of u
but
its because
ur smile makes me remember of things i dont want to remember
ur words makes me remember of words i dont want to remember
ur action makes me remember of the times i once had with her
my heart crumbles everytime i remember of the things i once had
things which i hold on so dearly
things i tought i have finally let go of
..why........

I am always scared
i would be a nuiscense to you
thus its why i never sms u
I always thought
the reason why your name echo in my head
was because i keep seeing you everday
but that was 2 years ago
however
ur name still does echo in my head
every day and night
anoying me to my wits

screaming to my self
has become a regular thing
faking a smile to hide my true self
has become a regular thing

why those this happen to me....and all of us...

Let me say it here
once and for all
so i dont have to scream in my head ever again
so i dont have to remember you ever again
so i dont have to burden you with thoughts ever again
i never did and never 1ill
love nor like you
i might have but its all an illusion
and may it always be an illusion
so that neither of us
will ever be burden by it
so that neither of us
will remember the past anymore
let the sands imburst it once more
let memory pile onto it once more
let our life be free once more
never looking back
into the bitter sweet past

one last thing
for all the things i have done
even thought it has already been one year
even thought i have already said this countless times
even thought i know u will never read this post
i would like to say
I AM SORRY
once and for all

till time do my head apart

Memories.....

Its a monday morning
the morning after the holidays
i am eager to reach to school
to meet up with the guys once more

Reaching school
My day was ruin by my very FANTASTIC
chemistry teacher which due to safety reasons
i am not allowed to name but
we all call her MANAROATH

She apparently call the whole class
to do a mudule paper
which is an exam which will determine the fate
of the language of the science subject either
in english or BM
Doing the module paper is not the bad part
The bad part is
We didnt even learn what the darn shit
is being ask by in the paper
she only teach until bab 7 but
ask us do bab 9 punya question
Some students including me started
throwing traunts at her:

Ming Wei : Went on the spot to sleep ignoring the paper
ME : Wrote "CIKGU BELUM AJAR BAB INI BAGAIMANAKAH PELAJAR HENDAK BUAT" on the paper as a sign of protest

Some students went to the extent
of making a Anit-(dat teacher;s nam) club in friendster
LOL

Well the rest of the school was well
boring
nothing much happened
so i shall skip all the way to tuition

BM TUITION-.....5pm...
I went there well early as usual
only one guy was there
this condition didnt stayed
because not long after
students started pouring in
Teacher gave some latihan to do
Not long after
Zoe entered the classroom
and went like

"Hi quah jit"

well i guess
she was trying to be nice
after all we are all gona end
up working together in camp
but i guess
the real point of dat
was to anoy me hahahaha
and so
she went on and on
whole duration of the class
saying
Hi quah jit

Well
as i told this to many people before
it aint easy to anoy me
unless u know exactly how to
because i am pratically emotionless
to many thing.....

After awhile
she got bored.....obviously
and the class went on

around during almost the end of the class
I asked her
if she could take me to the mtg place
which was up the hill
She said fine
and so
we went
up up up up up the hill
talking bout alot of things
most which i stayed quiet
which was for a reason
because she sounded so much like........
never mind
Haiz
listening to her and seeing her smile
reminded me loads
of my form 2 years
during traplex

We finally reach pass an uphill road
towards the house
however time was not with us
because it was already 7.20 something
and i have to walk home later
okok the real reason was
there was a cow infront of us
and she is terible afraid of cows
and this one just increases her fears
because
well
on the way down
we started talking bout BEEF
she said
a only good cow is a cooked cow
and i agreed
as soon as she said that
the cow behind us started to MOOOOOO at us
we quicken our steps and move on
laughing and continue the convo on beef
which the cow continuously moo-ed
everytime we touch the beef part
i dont blame the cow
it was like saying

I AM GONA COOK U COW MUAHAHAHA

right in front of him hahaha
walking down the hill
i had to acompany her back to her house
before i can start walking back
on the way down
we saw a very funny quote on a car
which said:

"Dont like my driving???
Then Call
1-800I DONT CARE

lol man
As soon as she went back to her house
it was a quick donw hill run
this awfully reminded me of
the time
during form 2
when
i challenge my guides that
i can run to her house
faster than
she can use her motobike and fetch all
the other members up
dont underestimate the geographi of the area man
its a very steep slope around 75 degree slope
well i won the bet alright
i reach there b4 she can manage to went down and fetch the last member up
hahahaha
while running i remembered
a little boy look at me from the fence and said

"lu siau arr"
(U crazy arr)

swt man..
haiz
let bygones be bygones
Loads of memories poured
back into my head
heading down the hill
actually
walking up the hill itself
has already
reminded me of the not so distant pass
one which i can never forget
because it brings so much joy to my life
however
joy always follows by bitter
and thus
this is what makes life what it is....

Well
till then

Walking home from Infi

It was saturday
4pm......after having lunch with adrian
at a vegetarian stall which happen after
we visit infinity cyber cafe in sungai dua
I told adrian i was going to take the bus home
and so he turn and said goodbye
as soon as he chow
i turn around and started my journey home
the sun was blazing hot
i guess its just GOD's divine punishment
for going to cyber cafe after the 40km got canceled
which is short means i have to lie to my parents again

On my first junction
I thought to myself
there lie to junction in front of me
both which are equally tempting
both which will take me to the same goal
A decision which is both hard but easy
easy because both will eventually lead to the same goal
hard because both roads will have a good share of pro and con
I chose the path which was apparently the hottest path

aaahh....
a mistake it was
the sun was not kind to me
as it blaze in full glory over my already burnt skin
however
considering the nuisance we are to earth
tearing a hole here and there in the ozone
ravaging it wonders and mystic
i guess the sun could not be any kinder than this
for if it wasnt i would have skin cancer now

A long journey it was
not as long as the longest
but not a short one either
2 hours and 30 minits it took me
walking in the hot unforgiving nature
missing all the T304 and U303 busses
which even if pass i would never have took
however
it would have been a test of faith
if either one of the busses actually passed me

On the 2nd junction
i was presented with another choice
both also will eventually reach a goal
one way ment going with my 1st route choice
the other ment mending my ways
and turning back to the road i could have taken earlier
both equally tempting
both equally teasing
both also equally vicious in throwing torments
i took to stick to my route
the route i selected earlier at the very 1st junction

Taking this route
the sun became calmer than before
but still as vicious as a summer day
sweat trickled down my neck
as i started sweating
i wondered
what joy it was to finally be back at home
.................eventually...........................

Turning here and there
into lengkok and lorong
many passer by stared at me
not blaming them
me with a big red rugsack
look like i was running away from home
.....running away from home....

Finally
i reach to the point
where both route finally converge
this however is not the end of the journey
the is still 1/5 of the way to go
it got me thinking
by hook or by crook
one will eventually reach the designated place
as much as
by hook or by crook
one will strife to achive what he wants
sometimes u wonder
if what you own right now
is really what u deserve??
or what u stole from others
under the pretext of ambition or justice

Finally seeing the gates of my hse
a slight pean of joy was uttered
never i was this happy seeing my hse
not comparing this to camps..which is 10 times more teruk
i went to take a bath
and good nite world
only to wake up today
for a far worst fate

...........COMBINE MEETING..........................

till then

A Great misadventure

The night before saturday
i was trashing round my bed
unable to sleep
due to anxiety of the day later
which is 40km journey
many many things keep haunting me
things like
am i really gona make it to combine MTG the next next day??
The moring finally came
i prepared my rugsack
which if u have seen b4 is a very big and red bag
and went off my way
upon reaching there
(with adrian)
the counsillor came
saw the permission slip
and said

"i am sorry but u all cannot do the 40km journey"


me and adrian stand there am te diau
we found out
it was becos we forget the most important person
punya cop which was the HM.......NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

And so
me and adrian stared at each other and
planed a journey of our own
because we came for a journey and we will get one
and so
we took the sapu chia go komtar
for ur information its a illegal taxi
which is dirt cheap compared to taxi
at komtar we wonder around
from the goverment office all the way to the minister punya carpark
which smelled awafully like a fish maket....horrible just horrible
we took U301 back to sungai dua
where we spen 4 hours in the cc playing dota
(no coments on the match)
After that i walk home from infi
which took me 2 hours to reach home
quite a long walk ler
but i have walk longer distances before
which is from my house to PFS and back to my house haha

Today
i went to school early for combine mtg
it was wellll
boring
mathew insisted that mtg ended sharp at 12
even thought'
by 10.30 all of us were sitting there like zombie already
the whole day went
i felt like i was missing something
i dont know what it was......but it was missing
i wonder what...haiz

till then

A long long holiday

Trashing around my bed

it has become worst lately

i think i have insomania

but dat can be

i still fall asleep dont i

only thing is dat

i keep waking up from a sleep

.....which i can blame my bros anoying alarm clock for...

Oh well

I remembered

during my brief period of rest

about a dream i had...not long ago...

which basicly means b4 i woke up from the darn alarm

Well i am not going to go into details about it

becos its personal....



Anyway

Holiday has been a hell for me

truth to be told

I prefer school day to holiday anytime of the day

the only reason why i would like holiday

is that i can get a few extra hours of shut eye

which i fail to get thanks to that darn alarm clock

and thus holiday is hell to me

I stare my cpu

day to nite

either playing a GBA game

or search wiki pedia about myth,budhism and others la

just to pass the time



Today

i had to wake up early

but considering the time that darn alarm clock start ringing

the time i was supose to wake up is ages

compared to the time i wake up



Anyway

Today

i went to temple

sempena the 3rd week of my grandmum's passing away

we went to the burmist temple for the dana*

(Dana means donating in this case food to the monks)

My cousins and uncle join along

among them was jon wen and others..

I took the opportunity to walk around the garden

looking at the murals and sculpture

of what else....buddha hahaha

walking around half way

Adrian call me

asking if i wanted to acompany him for 40km

i ask if anybody else was going

he said no

and so...i said ok la i follow

to acompany him and also

to rightfully earn my kiam pia badge*

(kiam pia badge is a nickname to the 5 venture badge

the senior scout's get however this has been abuse by

generations of TL and ATL that says if i become TL/ATL

i automaticly wear the badges...this act according to

Mr.Toh is like giving simply giving datukship to anybody

which is WRONG!!!)

However

not long after i acept the invite

i remembered that on sunday got combine mtg

and i have to be there

and so

NOW

i have to finish 40km and then

rush all the way to PFS by the next day

(note 40km is a 2 day journey)

Tomorrow when i reach PFS for the MTG

i am gona look like what i look a day after wesak day

a giant zombie panda bear hahaha



Till then

ps: even thought i am walking 40km i am still free to sms

hahaha