My dream....

It took a long time but
i have finally made up my mind about my future
It came to me in kinda of a dream lol
yea i know i am probably the only person on earth
who has decided what he is gonna do via dreaming haha

What i want to be is a teacher
an ordinary teacher would do teaching math and add math
at the same time if fate has it installed for me
i would really really love to serve in my school....PFS
In the school what i would really want to work towards
is being the principle of the school
lol a little far fetched right but who said a man couldn't dream haha

if that doesnt happen then i still have a back up plan lol
i would still become a teacher in the school i love
I would like to take up the post as house master of pinhorn
scout master in 7gts and maybe Buddhist society teacher advisor
getting back to my roots haha.Either one of it would be fine
but if somehow i manage to become all of it then
i would be a very happy man indeed

but as they all say
things never happen the way to want it to be
its by gods grace and gods will
which is always for the greater good and for the best of you
so i would be happy whatever i become wherever i end up
i follow the wind to the very end
till next time

A little something about me...

Have you ever sat down
and wonder...who are you??
not literally as in what your name is and all
but metaphorically as in
what are you in this world
are you just like any tom dick and harry
or are you the one that shines above the rest
are you the one that makes your friends laugh
when the times are down
or are you the one that makes the time down?

yea you guessed right
its one of those days where i sit down and think
of things of no such importance such as this
and yet i cannot help feeling that the answer
is beyond the great horizon away from the grasp
of my large and clumsy finger tips

What am i to the the world
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm...............
to be honest i don't know
i have always been different depending on who i am with
maybe thats who i am...a chameleon
ever changing in every different scenario
or maybe not?
Even a chameleon has its original form
a form any other form can recognize as the main
but me??what is my main personality?
i wonder hmmmmm................

when i was at very young age, i was always the cautious one
the one whom took a detour at the very sight of danger
when i grew older at standard 1-3, i was always the one in the corner
always there but invisible,not of any significant importance i guess
when i grew older again around standard 4-6 i became more aggressive
wanting to fit into society more i begun to imitate the people around
imitating peoples personality,the way they talk,what they talk, and etc
i was finally among a group of friends then
again although i was acknowledge as a friend
my presence was there but not there,
it was of no important significant so it doesn't matter if i was there or not
invisibility was a great irony indeed considering i towered among
my fellow classmates back in those age

The time came when i had to move on
to a new era of of my life...middle school
i was enroll into 1budiman where i started anew..fresh for a new start
once again my personality and all practically imitated what is that
of my surrounding ....it took me about 2 month to finally find
a group of people who acknowledge me as their friends
2 month worth of observing how they talk,what they talk about,
and so on and well it work so what the heck i guess

And then came scouts
yes the society that practically change my life to what it is today
the society which i am so proud to be in and will still be till the end of time
when i was with scouts
my personality once again changed....
around my PL which that time range from the calm and inteligent PL daniel lai
to the ferocious bear tan su leong and the wise cheng guo sern
they were all part of my life which shape me
my time with daniel lai made me more lax with my scouts
my time with tan su leong made me less eager to skrew my members
my time with cheng guo sern taught me the greatest tool of all in scouts
..improvising.....
and every time the pl changed,i change abit as well

after some time
the personality started to set in
the personality which my friends have all come to know
are i would say my annoyingness lol
i would when among my friends
find a topic where i have heard not long before
in hope that this group of people has not heard it yet
so that i can start common point where we all talk
i would always try to kick in a few jokes
just to brighten the mood....it doesnt always works
and at some times
strange words and philosophy start forming in my head
for god knows what reason
but i dont care
as long as everyone's happy
i dont mind dipping my name in mud a few times
just to make the guys around me laugh abit
its just me i guess

but now that i have so much of a free time
i start to wonder to my self .........
who am i really??
i change in the presence of everyone
and i am different to everyone depending on situation
so who is the real me that has been doormat for so long
in fact
to be honest
i go as far as to say that i have forgotten how to laugh
i have always held back a laughter
i dont know why
but i have always try not to laugh
but when i do
it would always be an inaudible sound
or an imitated laugh
but well again
this isnt the time for blabbering nonsense haha
i manage to sketch up a picture
it took me half the afternoon to complete
















its a picture of a man with many facade
the picture is suppose to mean the falseness of truth
the mans real face represent the truth
while the mask symbolizes a lie
as we uncover one lie,we stumble upon another greater lie
and as one lie leads to another
the truth will never be unveil
maybe the answer to the question is there is simply
no such thing as the truth
but then again who are we in the vast land in the universe
just a speck of dust i presume in the eyes of HE
never meant to known the whole truth but just
a truth shrouded in lies
but i guess we just have to be great full about it
because its better to know something
than to know nothing at all
and things that are meant to be are meant to be
so if we dont know the truth then the truth is not to be known
by us..that is HIS will
and HIS will is always for the greater good
till then
good nite

A hike up penang hill

Woke up at 6 today morning...crazy right
but its for a good reason haha
today i am going hiking from moon gate
all the way up to penang hill
The reason why i make it a point to wake up
that early is because the day before
navnith...who is the organizer sent me this msg

IF you are confirm going up penang hill
tomorrow please reply this message and be at the
moon gate by 8.15 or we will leave without you

pay attention the the be at the moon gate by 8.15
or we will leave you...why??continue reading

I reach moon gate at 7.30 because my dad had to fetch
my mum to work,so i was just wondering around
reminiscing about my not so distant past in coronation
which to my horror instead of becoming a what they call
projek bambosela-sumthing instead it has become PAS's
hq!!!WTF!!yes PAS...the political party that whats to turn
malaysia into an islamic country run by islamic laws...
i am not gona comment about them but for all the reason
the goverment bared the rights of all the scouts in penang
to have a surreal camping experience in the wilderness
they had to make it into a park....i dont mind the park
seriously but if they want to make a park then MAKE IT INTO
A PARK!!why the hell is it PAS's hq!! argh that really piss me off
Anyways i walk back up to moon gate around 7.45 and saw paalan
has arrive..followed shortly by meng jiang and chulan...
guess what time navnith came...
...
...
8.30!!!!
ish we actually called him
and threaten to leave without him
of course we didnt mean it hahaha
he had some official business with the loo
apparently it was about some awesome mutton curry he eat
yesterday and wanted to share some of whats left...in his stomach..
with the loo...how kind of him =.=
But then alls not lost
as even if the organiser was here...the guide wasnt
so we were force to wait for him who was bringing
keshav and narinder along with him lol

It was a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGG
journey of course and it was filled with nonsence and adventure
chulan and meng jiang went on and on all the way to the top of the hill
about their room companions in college...apparently meng is heading
to the same college as chulan which is H.E.L.P college....that says alot by itself.
meng was saying about how the college room was so small and expensive
because it was the size of an average veranda and he had to share it with
a room mate with the rent of 500..On the other hand if he rent an house
then it would be much cheaper because its ok la in size and the rent is only
450 with no roommates...which he then quickly add that he had to share it
with a Vietnamese couple and another 2 Vietnamese guys...no roommates huh
the conversation that followed had alot of sx-18 rated elements to it and is
not suitable to the delicate eyes of who ever who is reading this

not long after we started out our journey
we stumbled upon our 1st great and probably the greatest obstacle of all
which is the stairway to hell...in metaphorical terms....
There was just SOOOO many steps up and they were SOOOO steep
every step we took...or at least i took..required an herculean effort
but we manage to pull through i suppose haha
after that very annoying part of the journey,
we stumbled onto a rock with the word

149 the 9 look like this €
<--

me and chulan were debating what in the world that sign meant
i came to the conclusion it meant that we were 149feet above sea level
but then the 9 look like this € which in short look like the logo for cent
so we both agreed it was a toll booth and were required to pay 14 cent
to pass it....we didnt of course...

not long after that we manage to reach to our 1st pit stop along the
journey .We sat there about 5-10 minutes over there releasing
some steam before we started our journey
we had some coffee which was made up there
it was very good
i honestly suspect it was filled with 3/5 of sugar
because it was really really sweet
but it was really one of the best coffee i had hahaha

we started to move again when just after we were moving out
from the pit stop we ended in a wide plane of land
the guys went wild running around playing tag for awhile
until they found a sepak takraw ball by the side of the recliner
this was what happen

Jerome:Oi jeong take the ball then we play sepak
Jeong mark went and take the ball and start kicking
Narinder:Ok guys dont kick too hard ar(in his indianish accent)
right after that jeong mark super kick the ball and it fly
right over the cliff wall
Narinder:I told u not to hit so hard right
jeong:oopssss
after that we all had a short laugh
and narinder volunteered to take the ball down
jeongmark went up with him...god knows why
but as they came down
jeongmark was asked to wash the ball because it was already
dirty..(they were planing to keep it).
And so jeong mark went down to the pit stop
which was just near by to wash it
as soon as he did he came walk towards us
and kick the ball the the ground..=.=
everyone laugh their ass off because
now jeong mark has to wash the ball again lol
now as he came up with the washed ball again
he went and throw the ball to the spot where we found it
and once again we laugh our ass off at the fact
jeong mark once again has to wash the ball AGAIN!!

We continued our journey to the summit of the hill
the 2nd league of the journey was filled with treacherous pathway
one of the pathway had be smashed off by a landslide
leaving only a fraction of the path...enough space for one foot only
but we manage to went on i guess
about now i was so far in front i didnt manage to eavesdrop
on anybodies conversation...oh well..
But MAN!! leading was anoying
i was walking half way with my jaw slightly open due to fatigue
when a leaf pratically moving at 45kmph flew right into my mouth
....it was disgusting ok...
after that incident my mouth was firmly shut
but that wasn't a factor to deter mother nature as not long after
a small cotton/moth/seed ball flew about 30kmh into my nose
this time it was reallly annoying as it took me about 5 minutes
of blowing my nose to get it out....eeewwww

the road was long but flat so it was nice and relaxing
it wasnt long before we reach our next pit stop
and probably the last pit stop in a building
over there we took a really long rest
about 20 minutes or so
during that time
narinder much on a sandwich his mum made for him
chulan,meng jeong was eating some chips i assume chulan brought along
i can barely remember what everyone else was doing
but we snap some pictures of our ass facing the sun
and maby our faces as well
i wonder why they even bother as all they could see was black darkness
of course unless they meant to use it to insult vimalesh then it was
TOTALLY reasonable i guess
after that we debated to either take the road up
or the trail....against our logic we decided to take the trail
which we absolutely did not regret...at least after we reach he top

this new train was fairly annoying with it steep slopes
but it was fine i guess.During our walk
i notice there were a few fallen trees which lie on top of each other
which make them look like gate ways...they were sooo cool
i remember seeing about 9 of them along the way
weird thing is to some religions
it is believe that there are 9 gates of hell
hmmm 9 gates of hell....9 gates on the way to penang hill
INTERESTING!!!

it wasnt long before we decided to take a rest
i was at the middle station...we took the liberty to sit on the stairs
and just talk...of course there were monorail comming and going
fetching passengers up and down the hill
narinder,meng and jeong got all euphoric and ecstatic and started
shouting and waving to them
some of the monorail-er were friendly enough to wave back
some merely thought we were crazy
one of them was waving at us when jeong mark started saying
lu lau ah pek aaaaa
which in chinese means u old man aaaaa
then there was one where they didnt wave back and meng
shouted OOOIII!!! at them.......lol
accompanying these crazy stunts jerome and navnith
were looking at girls on the monorail
they comented on afew of them and hope to see some of
them on top
but it never came true...
(even if it did i doubt they would DARE to come near us...we STINK!!)

we continued our journey
this time we were following the trail
beside a raging flow of water down hill
narinder jokingly said he wanted to test the effects of gravity
so he took a leaf and threw it into the drain...well it went down so fast
we couldnt see it..so he took a stone the size of half your fist
and threw it down the drain...it to went down like an
obese falling down an bungee jump...it was fast
and not long after we all heard a BOOOMM!!
coincidence?? i think not....

not even a few feet up the trail..we found out a huge tree
has collapse on to it so there was no passing it
so keshav asked us to use a detour.....which is to
walk pass it via the water drain around the tree
the drain was SOOOO slippery thanks to water flow
but once again we manage to pull through
i was leading the about till the half point where the road
changed into stairs again...NOOOOOOO!!!!!T.T
but thank god because that was the last stretch because
as soon as those steps was over it was the sight of heaven it self
we have reached to summit...finally
all our grumbling and past discontentment were all swept
away by a great sense of achievement and fulfillment
however the pain remained as a reminder
of the price we pay to achieve the things we wanted

the first stop upon reaching there was no other that the
food court haha.all of us drank like a horse and eat like a bear.
the food there was awesome...well the fact that we just hike all
the way up probably made it felt awesome haha
everyone else was one table away from our table
the reason was obvious...we stink ok
the aunty that was selling water at that small domain thought
that we her business was bad due to racial reasons and thank
us for eating there when everybody was not....little did she know
that we were the cause of it lol

the guys wanted to go to the canopy walk however it was still
undergoing repairs...if memory serves me correct
it was still under repair 2 years ago when i was form 2
and with our countries efficiency, god knows how long more
will it stay that way...haiz

well we all went our separate ways as we head down the monorail
i hitchhike navnith's mum home however i think
i might have somehow offended them lol
if i did then sorry nav..
a nice bath and a good sleep will do good for me
as i have badminton tomorrow
and having legs the weight of 1 ton wont help me tomorrow
so good night

ps: i dont have the pictures but i feel like drawing some of the "gates"
i saw on the way so i will post it up as soon as i am done
tata

Left for Dead 2...AWESOME!!!

Was playing left for dead 2 today
with myself of course to get a feel of the game
before teaming up with gary,arif and leon or jason
to go afew round later tonight
and well
i am after all not really a good shooter
in fact i would pratically be the worst team mate
u will ever have.
WHY???
Simply because i shoot my guns like nobodies buisness
and shoot almos anything that moves....
regardles of whom it may be haha
at the end of the game

i saw sumthing that really made me laugh hehe















Just in case you cant see it
i am the one where the name is yellow in colour
where the part of most friendly fire
all my allies got 0 mine was 14
and where least damage taken where my
allies got 100 sumthing
i got 500++ lol
Oh well
back to my plans

Pulsing

Well yea its kinda late
for me i guess because i usually sleep at 9-10 haha
oh well i guess i have been thinking too much of
the add math paper i did earlier the day
man it wasnt an easy paper
and i was so confident that it was going to be an easy one
thats because
paper 1 was kinda easy so base on experience
form the math paper we took days ago,paper 2
was suppose to be easier..
but then again its murfis's law i guess
what will be will be,what might happen will happen
hahaha
paper 2 was a killer
so far,it is the only paper powerfull enough
to get me glued to my seat
all the way till the end of the exam
other paper's usually take about half
or slightly more than the time give
which is how i do things
but add math was....dang..

Recently
my head has been pulsing with songs
i really dont know why but i think
it might be my brains automatic calming down
mechanism because this is not the 1st time i am
experiencing this...usually during camps,meetings
and exams....
Whatever it is,its working because i can sit
and think properly and carefully in whatever
i am doing
but then again
having songs pulsing in your head aint such a good thing
because you tend to start moving head left and right
in accordance to the music in your head when people
around you dont hear athing therefore u look absolutely
stupid and weird at the same time
lol....

oh well i think i will head to bed now
good nite

MY classmates

Yay
after some fiddling with my camera and some cable
i have found a way to upload pictures from
my camera to my com
whoopeee

and i have decided to make
the first few pictures in my blog
to dedicate it to my friends and class mates haha
viva la free school
well shall we begin

Candidate 1:Neoh shaw jin a.k.a praying mantis



















Yes if u were wondering,
his surname is neoh
i too was dumbfounded when i first found out
but never the less he was a great friend
a big pain in the ass at times
but always a nice guy to talk to
his knowledge on all things H
is particularly scary in fact
but i must say
one of my favorite quotes from him is
i have watch so much "BLUE" normal "BLUE" makes me bored
sorry for those of u who hate this type of stuff
i am just saying
But dont look down on dis guy
behind his kinky behavior
lies a little evil genius that even you
wouldnt be able to defeat
yes i mean it
i had always thought he was an easy guy to beat in the exams
but he prove me other wise
his knowledge in all things science far surpass any of us
and his vast vocabulary only seconds to Tan
be afraid...be very afraid...

candidate 2 : Lee Jeong Mark a.k.a addidogs


















Yes i know
his already pretty famous even without this free publicity haha
oh well
i had never like him especially when he cheats in his exams
almost throughout the whole year
but besides that his a really fun guy to be haha
he goes around telling us jokes and then
laugh with his signature teehee teehee yes he actually
says teehee instead of expressing it lol.
In terms in badminton
lets just say let sleeping dogs lie
among our group of badminton junkies
his one of the best...well rating less than vincent and
dennis i suppose but his pretty good as well
haha.....

Candidate 3: Narinder a.k.a conde numbjhfjer 2


















Well as his name suggest he is pretty much your every day
ordinary singh which means his very very very tall...in fact
so tall it makes u feel short in comparison and also very hairy
lol just joking
his a really fun guy to be with honestly
his a good listener and very easy to be with
in fact he can follow up with any conversation easily as well
want an example?? here i was chatting with him yesterday
for fun when i msg him
me: Oi u on drugs again isit so high
Him: No la oni take afew shots of ganja and some kangkung sambal to go with it
me:may i recomend coke and maby some estacy to give it an extra height og highness to it
Him: OoOOO u very creative ar u
me:....ooookay.....

as i said very interesting haha
i believe if i am not wrong
he is gona become a doctor
well i dont doubt it
because his bio is suppose to be better than mine haha
of course i have my fair share of whooping his ass in that subject
as well as ong siew chai
but well we are free school students
nothing beats us in terms of intelligence
after all we are a school for scholars,sportsmen and gentlemen
lol good luck to u sister haha

Candidate 4: Lim Eam Ming a.k.a kisame
































See the resemblance
his name is lim eam ming we call him fish
i believe it was because his dad's name ended with HU
which is a chinese character for fish
I remember during form 3
during the exam
he would always sit behind of me and well
we were pratically still impish back then
so i took out some stickers and drew fishes on it
and stick it to the wall only visible to him
he would on the stop complain to the teacher
lol
then there was last year where he really save my ass
by buying me a brush during one of my torture
sessions in camp lol
arigato gozaimas kisame-kun
Dont look down on this guys fishy face
behind the facade
lies the evil math genius
yes u heard me right
he can do math as well as shoemarker can drive the F1
in fact maby better
i must boast that my add math is fairly better than average
because math is my favorite subject but this guy
can pratically play circles around me and almost
everyone in my class for this subject
truly an opponent to be feared off haha
good luck eam in wadever ur doing

Candidate 3: Azharul amir a.k.a blue

















Well his nickname
i guess says it all
so no further explanation is needed i hope
haha
anyways this guy is really....
well
no words can describe the awesomeness of this guy
his crazy enough to do anything , brave enough to face anything
and smart enough to pull it off
his truly one of a kind
he is my fellow mascot buddy as i am samurai or P-man for last year
and he is the phantom or the taliban man for last year
He is a prefect
so i dont blame him for skipping class all the time
but i really hope he and all the prefect as well
sho up their faces early morning so i can mark their attendence
but lets just leave that as that because leaving he class all the time
dont seem to affect them at all
NO they are truly the elite of my school
they may skip class but they can cover up everything
in fact some of my classmates who are prefect score higher than those
who stay in class and pay attention all day to lessons
amazing....
good luck blue

I have saved the best for last

Here we have Tan siew Hung A.K.A taugeh tan/Topedo tan

















Hehehehe
my faithfull assistant monitor
who sits beside me in class
and does most of the times
really really stupid magic trick
for example
he will take 2 coin and douse it with cold water
then put it on the table and then ask u to take one
and squeeze it with ur hand as hard as possible
then he would mumble in sum alien language
and touch both coin and as IF BY MAGIC
he knows which coin u take...if u really dont know
how he did it well i dont blame u i was the 1st to found out
anyway
He is nickname taugeh tan because his dad sells taugeh
and not just sell his dad is practically the supplier of taugeh
in penang lol
he plans to take over the business and add it a spice
of his own which he says he will encoparate biology to it
lol good luck with that tan
He is also known as topedo tan
WHY?????
simple he always play football as the keeper
and he has a signature move
which is he will slid at the opponent
at full speed forcing them to either move away and lose the ball
or risk THEIR balls in the line of fire
the ball...whichever ball which gets hit...will fly about half way
across the field in a very outstanding manor right above
our heads most of the time...a feat u would never forget in fact
and the point is..he does it almost every time a ball comes
lol..danger alert danger alert haha
In terms of knowledge
he could pratically squish me in sejarah,all the science subject
math and siviks if he was really focused because he has really really
good study methods which i would never succumb to my own ego to ask
...haiz..

Next we have Shaun a.k.a best friend...

















This guy arrrr
can be said everybody wants to be friend with him
and yes i mean it
I sometimes dont really understand why when i think of it in
a logical manner but i guess nature is not dictated by the laws
of simple understanding and logic..because is more complex than that
there was once a talk given by my teacher about mindset
she said that before the exam if u say fail d la then chances are u will
do badly because u already given up...this seems to work upside down for
shaun
He pratically goes to the exam hall and every single paper right
after opening one page he will say fail d laa
in fact its his signature word
but the weird part is...he scores even higher than average
which is to say he pawn me flat in exams except addmath T.T
One of my favorite quotes from him is
"I will pedigree that guy through the table"
which he said in accordance to some news about politics in
malaysia haha but that is another story for another day

And then we have Vimalesh...a.k.a (anything which has the word black in it)

















He is by far
the most hated yet the most like student in the class
everyone in the class will find even the smallest reason to argue
with him even if it was irrelevant but we all feel really really
sad when he is suddenly missing and all
i mean it
althought everyones teases you we actually are quite fond of u
haha
I remember eam ming said somethign of him
being my brother from a different mother and father
lol...i might agree with that.
the only difference between me and him is skin colour
besides that in terms of everything else we are pratically on par

our intelligence level...we compete exam after exam taking over each other
at the next exam

Our Sport achivement...ok i dont have many achievement compared to him
because of all his tennis achivement but i am very active in sports..i mean it as in
in terms of my sporthouse and all.

Belly size.....yes we both have almost the same belly size....i am proud to say mine
is smaller then his =P.

and last but not least KAVIRAJ A.K.A godfather..kononnya

















He is
a really really really really anoying guy
at least to be
he tries to imitate real life actors
but i guess over time
that has become a part of him
a significant part which is like a unique signature
for him self
i remember back then
when i had to harrase him to pay up his patrol fund
yes i was his PL back then and i had to fork out money
to pay for this guy who in the end not only never turn up
but never pay me back as well....and this repeated 3 times
yea i know the saying once's a mistakes, twice a fool
and i am trice which makes me a dumb ass...lol
I heard recently
he had been involve in some sindicate in my school
to sell off stolen calculator but i have good comformation
that it is a lie ...thank god
after all we wouldnt want our friends to get stuck in
nonsense do we haha

Owh gosh i really have to go and get back to my moral
to those of u i didnt post up
lets just say i didnt manage to snap a picture of u lol
sorry yea guys because u were all wonderfull friends to me
and well i could only put up this few pictures,
till then...

Things to think about

I was reading past a manga today
to just pass off the time because i had already
finish my moral revision which is more like
memorizing a 2 whole sheets of paper haiz
anyways
i was reading a manga called parasyte
and well it came up with a very interesting quote
haha just something for ur mind to ponder around
with
the quote goes like this :

"If we regard animals the same way we regard men
then the next time we have chicken for dinner
we are actually eating a human corpse"

well is something off a manga after all
so yea of course it sounds corny lol
but makes you wonder abit doesnt it
animals too have feelings
what makes us superior to any other being
that we are allowed to take their life at our whim

and then again the argument goes like this
isnt it the the law of nature to eat or be eaten
as lion's hunt for gazelle and human hunt for....
erm anything that is edible to be more precise
so is our actions justified??

who knows
why dont u tell me haha
till then

IN MY HEAD...

In my head now
A war of epic battle is unfolding
the adult in my head is shouting and screaming at me
The child in my head is crying
The devil in me is asking me to defy whatever the adult is detesting
The angel in me is asking me to skrew what the devil is saying

fighting against what
i doubt i will ever find out but my my
its a real migraine in my head
In the end i guess i will just hum myself to sleep or mask my
thoughts in loads of math and add-math to ignore
them fighting over god-knows-what

till then

I bid Adieu To History

Yesterday
exactly at 3.30pm
I had one of my most fulfilling
moment in my life
which is the end of the dreaded subject
known to all middleschoolder as SEJARAH!!
Yes u heard me right
as i took my steps out of the hall
away from the sea of human
all there for a common reason
which is to score the sejarah paper
for our SPM
although
it was not a happy thing b4 the exam
all the nervous and anxious feeling which filled
the very core of ALMOST every students heart
but the feeling of leaving the hall
not the one last time for there is still
bio,chem,phy,addmath,math and moral
but the point is
its the last time i will ever set my eyes on the
straineous notes made only to torture the very soul
of man kind to its core which is well known as sejarah
never will i ever have to learn about useless subject
such as pakatan murni,renaissance and the ottoman empire in arab which
they OVER emphasize and OVER exaggerate in a
light of false goodness ever again
MUAHAHAHAHA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well
that must be disturbing
but its just so nice to be freed after all that memorizing
i know many of my friends
who actually threw their sejarah notes into the pond
in the school grounds after the exam haha
i was tempted to lol
I know a friend who already BURNT yes BURNT her notes
i cant confirm it thought
Oh well next is math and add math
2 subject which i only need light revision haha
till next time

Day One of Tekanness

Day 1 of SPM lol
I couldnt even sleep yesterday to be honest
i was trashing in my bed for a nice hour before i went
and read some novel to fall asleep haha
DATS how nervous i am lol

Anyhows
Today, my mum fetch me to school
so i manage to catch up on some peribahasa
which i have to admit i didnt even use one ltr on
reaching school as if fate may have had it
singh and nik was behind of me lol
so we chatted all the way to the canteen about
how stressed we were for the exams
of course singh didnt really seem to be bothered that much
...WOW...
In the canteen i meet up with the usual gang
Seow,Shaun,Jho,Steph and yada yada
and all of us talk about whats gona come out

Among the best comments i heard from the crowd were

-shaun-
WHOEVER ASK ME ABOUT SEJARAH AFTER THE PAPER I
WILL PUNCH DAT GUY!!!

-matthew-
Pencemaran wont come out wan la!!last year come out d ok....
(just so u know...it came out...in your face matthew)

Well the talking and discussion continued
until the bell rang
which is when i saw a giant gathering of students
so i tought that was where i was suppose to go but it turn out
the malays were reading prayers there...lol

To be honest..
it wasnt as scary as we imagine it to be for the past few days u know
haha i manage to finish the paper pretty fast and check it a few
times as well but still its the quality that counts in the end...

Oh well
have to go back to sejarah soon
next time then

Its been awhile

Wow its been so long since i have last been here
that i have actually forgotten about my own blog
address haha.I had to went to stephens blog and then
follow the link to my own blog...lol

Anyhow my scaner is down so i cant scan pictures in
and i doubt it will ever be fix because i lose the
disc for its function and i cant seam to download it
off the net...haiz

school has been the same as ever
boring and full of ramblings, haha
i still doubt any of you will ever return here as...
well i havent edited here for such a long time now
wakakakakakakak

anyhows SPM is nearing
and well as much as everyone else i am really
panicking right now
the stress level is off the roof....
to be honest i was so pissed of my self
i almost chuck my sejarah book out the window
and scream till my lungs soar haha
but i didnt
instead i went for a 3 hour walk
up a hill in sungai ara
stoping and seeing every building and site i have
been before such as my old patrol meeting places
haha..
it was a really fun walk...and real tireing one indee
but at least i am more cooled down now haha
i guess i will be updating my blog ones again lol
i dont mind if no one read this haha because
its simply a place for me to ramble nonsence and
all i feel about haha.

Oh yea
i made a decision to become a teacher recently
it was a snap decision which i made because i couldnt sleep
but i have no regrets of it now haha
after a really long thought of it
i have decided on my life
"at last" thats what my parents and aunt would say
haha
i plan to to be
a guru pakar haha...preferbly in math
but to be honest there is a small spark in me that
wants to be the principle of PFS...lol
and yea i want to teach in my school haha
because it holds things that are dear to me
like all the vandalism i did to my school
lol
there was once i wrote a tamil dictionary on the wall
in my class room purely for fun and reference
....lol...
If i do end up returning to PFS...among the post i would
wanna pick up would be
being house master for pinhorn
maybe scout master for scouts
and guru penasihat for buddhist society...
haha just maybe but above all
if i become the principle...
MUAHAHAHAHA
there goes the school i guess

ok then have to get back to sejarah
till then

Tormented,Demented and Retarded.....

---WARNING ANGRY-EMO POST----

Well
here i am again
writing to a wall which i guess no one ever reads haha
well truth to be told
this is after all the place for me to spill out
everything and anything for all i car
becose well nobody reads it haha

1st of all
for some unknown reason
my really weird habit of talking to myself is back
i find myself talking to my self more and more often
of course it comes with no suprise tought
the stress dats in my head rite now well only
i would really understand haha

Ocasionally
I feel like there is really nothing left to live for
my friends are all seriouly anoying to no end
well dat would be harsh seriously
wad i ment is
the ones that are always beside me
they sing like its a rock concert
which well
really ticks me off especially at the time of
nearing the exams
well its becos
sch is usually where i study
sooooo being disturbed there
means byebye study time =.=
haizzz

My patience dis days
are seriously at rock bottom low
i get tick off over everything
from my friends calling me when teacher is teaching
to a simple sarcastic joke made by dem about how
much of an ass i am as a monitor
which well i dont deny as well becos
I HATE THIS MONITOR CRAP !!!!!!!!!!!!
haizzz
its probably just a personal excuse
to start scolding people for fun i guess
but i really find it to keep it in more den usuall
especially with a whole suprano of singers which
out of 10 only 2 have talent the rest are utter rubish
to be as lenier as possible
are a sore to the very ears of man kind....besides
their parents of course..

Well i am no different i guess
i make no effort in helping dem shut up
all i do is ask dem to shut up and i either get back to my
book,drawing paper or my sleep dis days
well i wouldnt say i make alot of friends dis ways
infact
i made alot of enemies in my artillery
some of which i deserve
some of which i rather be enemies with
and some of which i didnt even do anything but to tell
a rumour about him to sumone becos dat guy wanted
to know and dat guy went to tell him i was the one who spread
it and then the " SOME OF WHICH I RATHER BE ENEMIES
WITH " go and mengapi-apikan the thing and tell him
i told alot of nonsense about him...
haizzzz
To me
its very simple

THINK what YOU want to THINK
and I think what I want to think
If u think i am right den i am
if u think otherwise den its otherwise
but whatever it is
i couldnt careless about u....

no offence to those who r not related
dis only applies to the enemy lot
i mention above...

well
i fell alot better now spaming my anoyance here
hahahaha
good nite

A theory of friends

Its been a while hasnt it
since i last posted a thing
well i wan lazy seriously
didnt really came across me to
write down anything at all
with all the exams and study
that hurles in my way
all i can say is haizz

but recently
i have been back to some of my
old and weird ways of observing people
yeah some could say i back to my
pit of darkness where nothing really
reaches me anymore

well this time
i was observing on how friends drift apart
how often have u feel
that the presence of your friend
is no longer desireable.....
in fact one might come to the point and say
the presence is an utter nuiscance and
you would be better of without hearing his load
anoying and familiar voice ever again

well i felt it alot recently to be honest
i just dont feel as friendly i used to
maby because i am as anoying as usual
as loud as one may be
and as noisy as one could get
well i might be over doing it to some
or under doing to afew
but that is for u to dicide
i am here to share my theory on drifting friends

Well lets get straight to the point
after awhile of observation
i came across a constant
which is something like

friends start to drift apart especially when they
were to end up in the same class
with the condition the friendship
was made outside the class......................

some of u might be saying WTF you kapsiau tang about
well this is base on my experience and afew others
when a friendship is made outside of a class
or to be more specific in a open area
one befriends another without
fully knowing the true characteristic of the person
due to the restraint of society and image control

however once they were to meet in the same class room
for one full year....everything starts to change
WHY.................
well simply because
they get too much of u
when they dont even know anything bout you
they start to see yout true character
because in school especially at secondary
we tend to be all we want to be
and live wad we want to live
so i have to admit
we all do get a little anoying at some part of our life
at that point even the closest of friends
will start to drift away

well it comes to no suprise to me tought
however
a perculiar thing is
if the friendship was made in the class
the opposite USUALLY wont occur
in fact if they were to change class
and then get back together
their bonds will only grow stronger
however drifted friends will just go further
as they said
broken chain can be mended but it will never
be as strong as before....

well it all goes to show
moderation is key
haha

Just A tought

Well
it was friday nite
after i finish my temple duty
me and my family went to a family reunion
sumwhere near the jetty
my mom keep saying "chun thau"
which literally means ship head....god knows
what does dat mean

Anyway
while eating with my siblings
my eyes stop hold on one of my siblings
to be more exact
my youngest uncle's 1st born...a girl
NO my eyes didnt not got hold on her
becos i am a pervert nor a pedophile ok
well she was sooo small
and well all the food was like the other side
of the table which in her sense would be
the other side of the world....

being born in this world
do u decide ur own fate
or let SOMEONE control yours
do you sit around waiting for whats to come
or do u go out get what u want

these were well part of the questions that arise
why u ask
well not only was she unable to take anything
she was too shy to ask......
back to square on

Do you DECIDE what you want
or do u wait and let sumone control the
food u have on ur plate

Do you sit around and wait to be serve what
is rightfully yours
or do you stand up and brave to ask for
the dishes across the table

well i never came up with an answer
i guess i dont know what i want haha
but all goes the old hokkien proverb
paiseh chiak ka keee
which directly transalated means
if ur shy then eat yourself
haha

till next time
(if u were wondering how she did got her food
well my dad ask me to SERVE HER ok)

Hari Sukan

Well
couldnt sleep the night b4

was too woried of all the things that has to be done haha
Cos well i was incharge of the tent,marchers,marcher
decoration and so on and well seing its my last year
i wanted to give it my all...which i did

I made armour for everyone
with the plan to blind miss lee off her foot
when she has to hormat back at my squad of shiny knights
muahahahaha
The tent planing was WAR tent
more towards japanese styl
we drew our pinhorn emblem all over the tent
which was well actually kakashi's mangeku saringan
and it really look like a japanese war tent
well at least until marching was over
why??
u will know soon enough

I reach school at 6.30
i wore my once favourite t-shirt
which was my hawk patrol traplex t to sch
why u ask muahahah
becos it was black and long sleave plus it had a hood
as soon as i reach sch
i had my hood on and start my work
willian chan came to the field 30 minits ltr
and well i can see from the looks of his eyes
he was scared nuts cos he tot i was a hantu
hahahaa....my plan work lalala

Anyways,
this year i made a super fast,super simple,super cun
design plan which was well very simple to do for the tent
and well as planed it all went up in a good 2 hours
hahahaha
as soon as it was up,
i changed into my samurai costume....i am the mascot
and trained with the other mascot the phantom aka azharul
for our scene during marching

Marching time soon came
we were in a frenzy to get all the marchers in costume
when we were finally at line
one by one of the marchers soon came
what the hell man
So we were force to tell them
sorry la
den came the most anoying anoucement of all
all girl marcher standing behind are not allowed to
wear traditional clothes......WTF man
and u know whats the worst part is
all our girl marchers are wearing sareeee
and they make like 30% of the marching squad
ish ish ish
we were forced to kick them too
i can see in their eyes...deep remorse
i know they really worked hard and train for
this....not even one of them were glad...at least
as far as i could tell

When we finally started marching
we were as plan
god was on our side
it was blazing hot with the sun right on our head
i didnt see what the marchers did when they hormat
but man when we were finally standing halt at
where we were supose to be
it was dam freaking shiny hahahaha
soon things start to turn for the ugly
one of the marcher
which coincidently never ever came for one
pratice at all and was only allowed to join the squad
becos he was pleading like a little girl
said he could take it any more
for the 1st few sec i tought it was becos it was too shiny
they it hit me....he was a wimp....
okok i am being harsh here
but seriously
if ur gona do sumthing like this
should u know what u can and cant do???
haizz
the very second i see him walking back to tent
i knew all was lost....
like a soilder walking home from a lost war
my hse marchers marched with sorrow
in their eyes
cursing that wretched fool for ever joining the ranks
we made a conspiracy
to give him 0 marks for his achivement
in his koko form for pinhorn
Betraying ur sports house is like betraying ur country
and u know what we do to people like that
we hang them.....u deserve it naim

Anyways
as soon as i reach back the tent
DEN DEN DEN
i saw the most horrible thing of all
the tent was soooooooo SHINY!!!!!!!!!!
it look more like a pesta tent than a war tent
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
this time
me and the girls
conspire to pull out and exterminate as much shiny stuff
as possible haha
why u ask
becos we cant do it openly
one of the hse teachers did it
so to undo it is utter disrespect
soooo we did it behind her back....
well she didnt have much of a memory to start with
soooo all was well hahahaha
However let me state this clearly
no matter how anoying this treacher is
she is a very good one
especially when it comes to the wellfare
of her students
the only reason she made the tent shiny was
becos it was plain at 1st
.....which was well for a reason
which is that all the marching props
are also part of the decor
soooo the tent could only be really completed
after the march haha

Then came the envy of all houses
our captain
the YAAAB Miss lip sin Mr. GaneshKumar
ordered dominos pizza for lunch...for everyone
WOHOOOOO
dam nice man hahaha
in contrast to what other houses dine with
which was burger and mee goreng
we had the most expensive lunch of all haha
Mr.Ganesh u truly are a conoiseur of good wellfare
hahaha

After half time was over
me and the other tarik roda participant
wan sitting down and talking bullshit in the tent
when someone came and told us
tarik roda was cancelled
we were like WTF!!!
so hazwan kinda went off so did ken por
only to find our
30 minits ltr it was back on track
we were life WTF!!! again haha
we beat tunku putra by a nice 13 seconds
haha beat that

anyway
came the last event
we were like cheering and shouting till all our
voice just came out
in the end of all that cheering
i was voiceless
for 2 reasons:

1st.I shout for like a good 30 minits at the top of
my voice...unless i wasa titan i would have lose
my cvoice by then

2nd.my team lost..........

In the end of all of that
we ran to the front in top speed
I felt dam sad that we lost
but then as my friend once said to me
It doesnt matter win or lose
its the spirit in which we try
all that matters is
we all had a great time
and we tried our best
to the fullest extent
so that we have nothing to regret about in the end
hahaha

oh well
time flies
till then

Nostalgia

Nothing much has been going on

yeah the sukan saringan came and went
just like every other year
it has its ups and downs

well this year in particular,

i manage to lose the the silver medal

to my friend by 0.07 feet....ish

well i still got a bronze but well could have done better

and whats worst than that

i did my worst preformance ever

in my lempar cakera event

where i failed even to get in to the finals

when i could have easily gotten a silver

cos well i beat all of the in training and every year b4
but this year, guess i have finally lost it

Neways

i was browsing through my pictures to

see if i could clear some space in my com

when i cae across my form 2 pictures

to be more precise form 2 traplex pictures

and man it didnt take long for the nostalgic feeling to come

yeah i have to admit

it was one of my best scouting years

where competition was about winning throphies

and not among our self

it was the same year i learnt and important thing

which is well

NO man is an island

why..????

in the start of the whole traplex thing

i was not given pcghs guides

but more like they were traded in from the senior

whos gf was in the guides unit i had

so truth to be told

i wasnt very happy haha

anyway

when everything setle down

i did what i did best

which doing things by myself

it was the way i prefered to work

in the process

i made most of the guides go nuts

becos when it came to pratice dance

i would just be a stick standing there

...(NOTE: i pratic the dance at home and

got better than most of them...MOST!!)

Then came sketch

it was afterall my favourite part of the camp

and well i did a bullshit of a job which i will never forget

i made the script too long

so i super speed the whole skecth

making it sound like nonsence

well i seriously doubt that even with normal speed

the guides could understand it

When we were praticing the sketch

i was the same as b4.....a stick......

well seeing back to the pass

i guess the real reason was

i did almost everything spontaneously

and was afraid that if i skrew up even during

pratice i would be too ashamed to show my face again

well it proved to be a selfish tought
i was actually scolded by one of my guides

who coincidently just came back from a holiday

and was tired and cranky

i would thank u now for doing that haha

if it wasnt for u,

i would still be just a stick

During the whole duration,

my team was the most cost efficient and nature loving

patrol,to prove it

all our outings was outdoors activities

such as hiking or simply making homemade bubbles

well not all of us

only and handfull

the rest was well....buzy....

well

i have nothing much left now

the past memories will remain just memories

well till then

The only memories i hae left...

Patrol outing at Penang Hill

My Fancy costume and my guides

Thanks for everthing.............

a very sick day

Recently
my school sukan tara has just passed
i as usual am proud of my sport hse that we
manage to top the event once again this year
it was no easy feat however,
the wu lien teh hse was close by and
half of my hse members was missing during
the second day of the event
which where me and the captain agreed
if we were to lose it will be on their head
but we won so their off the hook hahahaha

Anyways
after that
i manage to get my self ill
with sum sort of diesease
which was well what the doctor called
"coliegue" not sure if my spelling is rite
but dats how it sounds like
its supose to be sumthing like my collon
or part of my stomach start to twist turn and crap
all at the same time causing alot of pain
haha the doctor prescribe me with 3 medicine
and 100 plus....haha
well it aint plesent let me say dat

Later that day
the stomach problem started to cool down
den came high fever
the doctor this time prescribe 4 medicine
and ask me to continue taking the earlier meds
haiz........
u know what
i just broke my record of seeing doctors
this would be the 1st time i seen 2 doctors
in one day....swttt

Neway the fever went down
and then rashes started to come
ish i only wonder whats wrong with me

Just so u know
i am having probs with my key board
which keeps repeating the letter "i"
usually when i click on
W,E,R,U,O,P....
and believe me its dam anoying
dats why i havent been updating my blog
haiz

hope the problems fix soon
i shall post pictures on sukan saringan
next week once its done
and maby hari sukan too ok
haha for now visit stephens blog
theres plenty of pictures there haha
till then

Post-Examination-syndrome

Well
exams have come and go
have been kinda lazy to update my blog
after my exams really
well its cause of my horid exam marks
haiz all the effort in my study
and i am still not able to pull my self up
ish for those of you who are curious
my memory on my marks are blur
but its
1A1, 2 A2, the rest all B and C haizzz
and with no suprise
my add math is A 1....
well i have ONLY been working on it
truth to be told
sooo i didnt expect anything less than dat

Today
school was like any other
given exception on the pain i feel at all my joints
hahahaha
it hurts because i was teaching my juniors
how to play cakera and peluru yesterday
and well b4 u started teaching them
i actually trained for 1 hour 1st to make sure
what i tought was correct haha
Anyways
once school was over today
i coudnt wait to get home
and start my holidays hahaha
but well
the rapid was SOOOOO dam slow
it was like 1 hour later than usual today haizzz
while waiting at the bus stop
i manage to see a few people and sum funny stuff haha
i saw

-a boy digging his nose
-a boy basicaly dancing in his car...his mom wasnt please...
-theresa and her boyfriend on a hotwheel....siau eh hahahaha

well b4 i could see anymore
the bus manage to came.....FINALLLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
on the bus
for sum reason i felt really tired and went for
a short nap haha
when i woke up
the bus apparently have passed CGL and RESCAM
and beside me was a whole bunch of
CGL girls talking bout DOTA and TOWER DEFENCE...WTH!!
haha
base on what i eavesdrop i found out they were around form 4-5
....yes i know evesdroping is bad ok but well u cant really help it when
they are all around u rite hahahaha....

Well
my holidays are already kinda book seriously
My schedule is as below:

TMO
-go for Undang Undang kursus

Sun
-Go to Navnith birthday...AT INFI WEE!!!!!

Mon
-Non yet

Tues
-Have to go temple for buddhist society

Wed
-non yet

Thurs
-Visit ODTC camp and give advise

Friday
-Go visit 8th south keracut

Sat
-Take undang license

Sunday
-KO

Haha
well in between all those
i have loads to do tooo haha
oh well
anyways
have been working on some drawings recently
i was testing with shading and lines
the pictures havent gone too well yet
sooo i wont post it up haha
when its finis ' i will post it up haha
till then

buzy buzy

Been buzy this few days
well honestly speaking
i was preoccupied with monitor duties
thanks to a certain ketua kecerian
who cannot even do his job properly
i have to do the jadual tugas and waktu
for my class room
well i wont say i regret doing it
cause it looks way better than the jadual waktu
in other ppl's class wahahaha
afer all its done by ala mour hahaha
okok enough baseless flatery
I have more to life
than to ruin my days in school
worying about the stupid class
which in a sense
doesnt even care for themself
haizzzz

Anyways
besides all the monitor crap
i have been working hard ...
well at least for add math
.....honestly speaking again...
only add math
i found out too late
i have been neglecting other subject
for too long already hahaha
oh well
we will see the results....
if i manage to get a even an A2 in the exam
i swear i will comit suicide cause all i have
been doing is study add math hahaa
thus i expect nothing less of an A1
at least oni for that subject haha

Truth to be told
exam being all so near
and th pressure getting more and more
i somehow manage to get my ass sick
just a few days before exam
how great is dat pfft
i have no idea what i am gona do now
well i manage to draw a few picture
but i havent manage to complete any of them
yet...aikx
haha
oh well
i guess its back to my add math
till then

Pinhorn Pratice weeee....

Well since chulan ask for it
I am comiting this whole post to
my sport hse pratice which i shal codename

-BLUE HOUSE-

Due to the reason my school wont allow
us bloggers to critic the school so to prevent myself
from accidently criticizing the school i shall keep it in codename
well

TOday in BLUE house we all did our long jump pratice
well for those of u who dont know
My school has a very long and i would say nice
tradition of doing sukan tara dat is
everybody will do the few main events to score points
for their hse...Main events such as high jump,long jump
100 meters and 400 meters.
And i am proud to say

we the BLUE sport house members
are the proud champions of the sukan tara cup wahahaha
for 7 years standing haha

Well we started off with some running as usual
then followed by preparing for the jump
and as tradition goes
i was never a really good long jumper
high jump yes,100meters 1pts and 400 meters maby 1pts
but never long jump cos
i have never manage to get a hang on it haha
well me and a few buddies of mine
went around taking photos of each other
and the sports event cos well
this may be my last year in PFS
and i go as far to say

The crusaunt is to france as
sukan koko is to my school

and i am proud to say it hahaha
If u miss the koko activities in my school
u miss being part of the School comunity

Well as far as that has to say
being in my sports hse for any event whatsoever
from pratice to marathon run
it has always been a honey of an experience to me
and its always filled with a bottomless barrel of laughter

and a heart filled with acomplishment
not to mention how tired i will feel after it hahahaha

I guess the old proverb
"U never know what u Got till its gone"
speaks for itself in this case
cause many people when first entering the school
sports hse pratice is a real pain in the back
however as years pass
many of us...NOT ALL OF US..which includes me of course
will become very enthusiastic about our hse
like me for example
when i 1st become a school boy
i was like dammmmmm irritated about PK KOKO
for mewajibkan this koko stuff
Now I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT!!!!!
I wouldnt miss my sport hse activity for the world
and knowing i have to sooner or later
makes me kinda bum haha

And to chulan
i have no regrets on becoming vice captain
i try to do my best however my best is all i got
so..... it might not be much but to me and hopefully
to everybody else
the best should be the only thing one should be giving to
his sports hse no matter what situation haha
as MY saying goes
Betray UR ship,Off with ur head boy
haha
which means
dont MENGKHIANATI UR SPORTS HSE
AND ALSO UR COUNTRY HAHAHA
with this i submit sum photos
of the sports hse

haha

hope u enjoy

EVERYONE MEET THE VICE CAPTAIN -SINGH-

The BLUE HOUSE Dominating the green and the

weird orange colour house wahahaha

Oi william ur supose to be in PIHORN not CHEESEMAN!!!!

(-beware of the chilf molester....den den den...i hope his not

reading dis hahaha)

The jump of the day by our very own captain ganesh

Meet ganesh the new pinhorn house captian

sorry to say chulan buy his more handsome than u

wahahahaha

till then guys

Emo.......again..

When i 1st entered the sch this year
feeling the start of a whole new a challenging year
i was excited till no end
however
that preception quickly change
as much as droping one class was a huge
blow to me because that means
change of teachers and different stly of teaching
and i definitely prefer m.r Davids way of teaching add math
but then a few weeks later i manage to let that
pass by
then came the second most anoying thing of all
reshuffling....
many of my class mates which were my friends
got sent one class lower...(i couldnt change cos well i am nuber 1 in class)
This is another blow to me cos well now
not only am i missing the old teachers and stly i have to adapt to
now i have to adapt without friends....haiz
all in the name of equality.....bullshit

After that came the most dreaded thing of all
being class monitor...
to those of u who think being monitor is easy
especialy in my sch all i would like to say is
think again
As a monitor i had to collect
everyones ic,sports hse,EXACT name
and so on
well is a snap rite
WRONG!!!!!
my dam anoying class mates are always missing
some go for editorial board mtg, prefects are always missing
then there is the group of veteran pakar ponteng class
which is soooo hate
then as if that is not enough
when i ask them to check if is right or wrong
they say its all corect
only after i deliver to the person who wants it
my class teacher tells me that the person
has a spelling error and get this
i already ask dat dam bloody person if his name was spelled correct
and he said YES!!!!!!
My fellow classmates and u know whoever u are

FOR GOD SAKE I DONT GIVE A FUCK BOUT YOU UNDERSTAND
I DONT GIVE A DAM IF YOU FAIL UR SPM
AND FINALLY I DONT GIVE A HELL IF UR NAME HAS A TYPO
WHEN U RECIEVE UR SPM SLIP BECOS YOU SAID THERE WAS
NOTHING WRONG U DAM STUPID SOB!!!!

Ahhh
i am glad i let dat out
to those who sent in early
kudos to you and thank you for not making my life hell
and to those i might have hurt becos i was stupid enough
to think that forgeting me might be the best solution for
them i am sorry tooo but what is done is done and i know
that u hate me

till then
(OH yeah chulan i will writ about sports pratice but i have
to keep stuff in initials cos the sch are now monitoring
students blogs thanks to a certain incident..)

Engulf by a dark abyss

My head has been screaming
my heart has been racing
my mind has not settled in a while
my thoughts racing and jumping
to the smallest thing ever

Never have i felt a greater emptyness in me
So great it disrupts my decision
it disrupts my peace

Reading which has always been a ticket
for me to escape my daily woes
have failed me badly
word after word,page after page
the feeling is presistant
the emptiness stays on
the void has been reopen

But then
it came with no suprise to me
the way i feel especially at this time of the year
because it has been constantly reopening and closing
during the long span of the years
i wonder where it started........

I have lost my sense of direction
i have lost my sense of desire
i have lost the peace of mind

No book has suceeded yet
no msg has too
All i feel is emptyness and lonelyness
and i wish i knew why
maby i should just let everyting go
and be myself for once
just ignore everyone else
for a day or two
or maby pretend to be voiceless
so that i can hear myself more clear
whatever the reason is
i hate feeling this way

If you are reading this post
i am now voiceless for the whole week
and i mean it

Till then...

A game Of risk

Well

there days i woke up with a pang in my head

getting all dizzy very frequenty now and then

it all started after comming back from temple

on wednesday

although i feel dam great helping out and all

but well its sumthing i keep to my self all this while

but well spilling the beans might give a chace for

you guys to tell me what the hell is wrong with me

Well

I enoy going to the temple and spam my energy

but everytime when it comes to blesing

my head feels like sumthing i trying to burst free

from my head making me all dizzy and disorientated

it was the worst case on wednesday

aikxxx

still getting the aftermath today

making me hard to make good desicions haha

Oh well

anyways

no mater how headace i am

i never fail to play a good game of risk with my

cousins and family

haha

My bro and cousins challenged me to play

it with them....well i knew i was gona lose

cuase they were like super pakatan rakyat wan

so i susah wan to win ler haha

but well here is how it went

Me- black

My bro- green

cousin- red

another cousin-blue

It started of slow

i took over australia as soon as i could

well which is on the second round

my another cousin took the offensive and started rampaging

through asia, i took the defensive protecting australia

and also secretly ploting my attack in central america

and also europe...

my Bro who was dominant in central america

was the top power in the early game

but after alot of scheming with my cousins

i manage to smash him all the way to an isolated corner in the map

wakakakakak

after he was out of the way

what was left was a very grumpy brother who was no threat

besides noise polution and a sore loser...( he went on rambling

and complaning to my cousins why they didnt attack me and wack him

instead without realising he was so noisy i had to on the music to max

just to ignore him..)and another 2 cousins who were quickly gaining pase

one of them has been confine in africa and the other dominat i asia

whos moto was well Asia for Asia

Anyways

the one in africa manage to get some reinforcement units

which equals to 40UNITS!!!!! giving him an instant upper hand

but the other cousin didnt budge instead he call his own reinforcements

which was 45 UNITS!!!! and they went on fighting each other

while i slowly scheme and wait till they get weak

then BAM i go on a killing spree killing them i a single round

they wont even know what hit them wakakakaka

okok i wont take credit for this strategy

cos it was my dads strategy...i just recycle it hehe

oh well if u wanted to see the game

here it is haha