Tormented,Demented and Retarded.....

---WARNING ANGRY-EMO POST----

Well
here i am again
writing to a wall which i guess no one ever reads haha
well truth to be told
this is after all the place for me to spill out
everything and anything for all i car
becose well nobody reads it haha

1st of all
for some unknown reason
my really weird habit of talking to myself is back
i find myself talking to my self more and more often
of course it comes with no suprise tought
the stress dats in my head rite now well only
i would really understand haha

Ocasionally
I feel like there is really nothing left to live for
my friends are all seriouly anoying to no end
well dat would be harsh seriously
wad i ment is
the ones that are always beside me
they sing like its a rock concert
which well
really ticks me off especially at the time of
nearing the exams
well its becos
sch is usually where i study
sooooo being disturbed there
means byebye study time =.=
haizzz

My patience dis days
are seriously at rock bottom low
i get tick off over everything
from my friends calling me when teacher is teaching
to a simple sarcastic joke made by dem about how
much of an ass i am as a monitor
which well i dont deny as well becos
I HATE THIS MONITOR CRAP !!!!!!!!!!!!
haizzz
its probably just a personal excuse
to start scolding people for fun i guess
but i really find it to keep it in more den usuall
especially with a whole suprano of singers which
out of 10 only 2 have talent the rest are utter rubish
to be as lenier as possible
are a sore to the very ears of man kind....besides
their parents of course..

Well i am no different i guess
i make no effort in helping dem shut up
all i do is ask dem to shut up and i either get back to my
book,drawing paper or my sleep dis days
well i wouldnt say i make alot of friends dis ways
infact
i made alot of enemies in my artillery
some of which i deserve
some of which i rather be enemies with
and some of which i didnt even do anything but to tell
a rumour about him to sumone becos dat guy wanted
to know and dat guy went to tell him i was the one who spread
it and then the " SOME OF WHICH I RATHER BE ENEMIES
WITH " go and mengapi-apikan the thing and tell him
i told alot of nonsense about him...
haizzzz
To me
its very simple

THINK what YOU want to THINK
and I think what I want to think
If u think i am right den i am
if u think otherwise den its otherwise
but whatever it is
i couldnt careless about u....

no offence to those who r not related
dis only applies to the enemy lot
i mention above...

well
i fell alot better now spaming my anoyance here
hahahaha
good nite

A theory of friends

Its been a while hasnt it
since i last posted a thing
well i wan lazy seriously
didnt really came across me to
write down anything at all
with all the exams and study
that hurles in my way
all i can say is haizz

but recently
i have been back to some of my
old and weird ways of observing people
yeah some could say i back to my
pit of darkness where nothing really
reaches me anymore

well this time
i was observing on how friends drift apart
how often have u feel
that the presence of your friend
is no longer desireable.....
in fact one might come to the point and say
the presence is an utter nuiscance and
you would be better of without hearing his load
anoying and familiar voice ever again

well i felt it alot recently to be honest
i just dont feel as friendly i used to
maby because i am as anoying as usual
as loud as one may be
and as noisy as one could get
well i might be over doing it to some
or under doing to afew
but that is for u to dicide
i am here to share my theory on drifting friends

Well lets get straight to the point
after awhile of observation
i came across a constant
which is something like

friends start to drift apart especially when they
were to end up in the same class
with the condition the friendship
was made outside the class......................

some of u might be saying WTF you kapsiau tang about
well this is base on my experience and afew others
when a friendship is made outside of a class
or to be more specific in a open area
one befriends another without
fully knowing the true characteristic of the person
due to the restraint of society and image control

however once they were to meet in the same class room
for one full year....everything starts to change
WHY.................
well simply because
they get too much of u
when they dont even know anything bout you
they start to see yout true character
because in school especially at secondary
we tend to be all we want to be
and live wad we want to live
so i have to admit
we all do get a little anoying at some part of our life
at that point even the closest of friends
will start to drift away

well it comes to no suprise to me tought
however
a perculiar thing is
if the friendship was made in the class
the opposite USUALLY wont occur
in fact if they were to change class
and then get back together
their bonds will only grow stronger
however drifted friends will just go further
as they said
broken chain can be mended but it will never
be as strong as before....

well it all goes to show
moderation is key
haha

Just A tought

Well
it was friday nite
after i finish my temple duty
me and my family went to a family reunion
sumwhere near the jetty
my mom keep saying "chun thau"
which literally means ship head....god knows
what does dat mean

Anyway
while eating with my siblings
my eyes stop hold on one of my siblings
to be more exact
my youngest uncle's 1st born...a girl
NO my eyes didnt not got hold on her
becos i am a pervert nor a pedophile ok
well she was sooo small
and well all the food was like the other side
of the table which in her sense would be
the other side of the world....

being born in this world
do u decide ur own fate
or let SOMEONE control yours
do you sit around waiting for whats to come
or do u go out get what u want

these were well part of the questions that arise
why u ask
well not only was she unable to take anything
she was too shy to ask......
back to square on

Do you DECIDE what you want
or do u wait and let sumone control the
food u have on ur plate

Do you sit around and wait to be serve what
is rightfully yours
or do you stand up and brave to ask for
the dishes across the table

well i never came up with an answer
i guess i dont know what i want haha
but all goes the old hokkien proverb
paiseh chiak ka keee
which directly transalated means
if ur shy then eat yourself
haha

till next time
(if u were wondering how she did got her food
well my dad ask me to SERVE HER ok)

Hari Sukan

Well
couldnt sleep the night b4

was too woried of all the things that has to be done haha
Cos well i was incharge of the tent,marchers,marcher
decoration and so on and well seing its my last year
i wanted to give it my all...which i did

I made armour for everyone
with the plan to blind miss lee off her foot
when she has to hormat back at my squad of shiny knights
muahahahaha
The tent planing was WAR tent
more towards japanese styl
we drew our pinhorn emblem all over the tent
which was well actually kakashi's mangeku saringan
and it really look like a japanese war tent
well at least until marching was over
why??
u will know soon enough

I reach school at 6.30
i wore my once favourite t-shirt
which was my hawk patrol traplex t to sch
why u ask muahahah
becos it was black and long sleave plus it had a hood
as soon as i reach sch
i had my hood on and start my work
willian chan came to the field 30 minits ltr
and well i can see from the looks of his eyes
he was scared nuts cos he tot i was a hantu
hahahaa....my plan work lalala

Anyways,
this year i made a super fast,super simple,super cun
design plan which was well very simple to do for the tent
and well as planed it all went up in a good 2 hours
hahahaha
as soon as it was up,
i changed into my samurai costume....i am the mascot
and trained with the other mascot the phantom aka azharul
for our scene during marching

Marching time soon came
we were in a frenzy to get all the marchers in costume
when we were finally at line
one by one of the marchers soon came
what the hell man
So we were force to tell them
sorry la
den came the most anoying anoucement of all
all girl marcher standing behind are not allowed to
wear traditional clothes......WTF man
and u know whats the worst part is
all our girl marchers are wearing sareeee
and they make like 30% of the marching squad
ish ish ish
we were forced to kick them too
i can see in their eyes...deep remorse
i know they really worked hard and train for
this....not even one of them were glad...at least
as far as i could tell

When we finally started marching
we were as plan
god was on our side
it was blazing hot with the sun right on our head
i didnt see what the marchers did when they hormat
but man when we were finally standing halt at
where we were supose to be
it was dam freaking shiny hahahaha
soon things start to turn for the ugly
one of the marcher
which coincidently never ever came for one
pratice at all and was only allowed to join the squad
becos he was pleading like a little girl
said he could take it any more
for the 1st few sec i tought it was becos it was too shiny
they it hit me....he was a wimp....
okok i am being harsh here
but seriously
if ur gona do sumthing like this
should u know what u can and cant do???
haizz
the very second i see him walking back to tent
i knew all was lost....
like a soilder walking home from a lost war
my hse marchers marched with sorrow
in their eyes
cursing that wretched fool for ever joining the ranks
we made a conspiracy
to give him 0 marks for his achivement
in his koko form for pinhorn
Betraying ur sports house is like betraying ur country
and u know what we do to people like that
we hang them.....u deserve it naim

Anyways
as soon as i reach back the tent
DEN DEN DEN
i saw the most horrible thing of all
the tent was soooooooo SHINY!!!!!!!!!!
it look more like a pesta tent than a war tent
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
this time
me and the girls
conspire to pull out and exterminate as much shiny stuff
as possible haha
why u ask
becos we cant do it openly
one of the hse teachers did it
so to undo it is utter disrespect
soooo we did it behind her back....
well she didnt have much of a memory to start with
soooo all was well hahahaha
However let me state this clearly
no matter how anoying this treacher is
she is a very good one
especially when it comes to the wellfare
of her students
the only reason she made the tent shiny was
becos it was plain at 1st
.....which was well for a reason
which is that all the marching props
are also part of the decor
soooo the tent could only be really completed
after the march haha

Then came the envy of all houses
our captain
the YAAAB Miss lip sin Mr. GaneshKumar
ordered dominos pizza for lunch...for everyone
WOHOOOOO
dam nice man hahaha
in contrast to what other houses dine with
which was burger and mee goreng
we had the most expensive lunch of all haha
Mr.Ganesh u truly are a conoiseur of good wellfare
hahaha

After half time was over
me and the other tarik roda participant
wan sitting down and talking bullshit in the tent
when someone came and told us
tarik roda was cancelled
we were like WTF!!!
so hazwan kinda went off so did ken por
only to find our
30 minits ltr it was back on track
we were life WTF!!! again haha
we beat tunku putra by a nice 13 seconds
haha beat that

anyway
came the last event
we were like cheering and shouting till all our
voice just came out
in the end of all that cheering
i was voiceless
for 2 reasons:

1st.I shout for like a good 30 minits at the top of
my voice...unless i wasa titan i would have lose
my cvoice by then

2nd.my team lost..........

In the end of all of that
we ran to the front in top speed
I felt dam sad that we lost
but then as my friend once said to me
It doesnt matter win or lose
its the spirit in which we try
all that matters is
we all had a great time
and we tried our best
to the fullest extent
so that we have nothing to regret about in the end
hahaha

oh well
time flies
till then

Nostalgia

Nothing much has been going on

yeah the sukan saringan came and went
just like every other year
it has its ups and downs

well this year in particular,

i manage to lose the the silver medal

to my friend by 0.07 feet....ish

well i still got a bronze but well could have done better

and whats worst than that

i did my worst preformance ever

in my lempar cakera event

where i failed even to get in to the finals

when i could have easily gotten a silver

cos well i beat all of the in training and every year b4
but this year, guess i have finally lost it

Neways

i was browsing through my pictures to

see if i could clear some space in my com

when i cae across my form 2 pictures

to be more precise form 2 traplex pictures

and man it didnt take long for the nostalgic feeling to come

yeah i have to admit

it was one of my best scouting years

where competition was about winning throphies

and not among our self

it was the same year i learnt and important thing

which is well

NO man is an island

why..????

in the start of the whole traplex thing

i was not given pcghs guides

but more like they were traded in from the senior

whos gf was in the guides unit i had

so truth to be told

i wasnt very happy haha

anyway

when everything setle down

i did what i did best

which doing things by myself

it was the way i prefered to work

in the process

i made most of the guides go nuts

becos when it came to pratice dance

i would just be a stick standing there

...(NOTE: i pratic the dance at home and

got better than most of them...MOST!!)

Then came sketch

it was afterall my favourite part of the camp

and well i did a bullshit of a job which i will never forget

i made the script too long

so i super speed the whole skecth

making it sound like nonsence

well i seriously doubt that even with normal speed

the guides could understand it

When we were praticing the sketch

i was the same as b4.....a stick......

well seeing back to the pass

i guess the real reason was

i did almost everything spontaneously

and was afraid that if i skrew up even during

pratice i would be too ashamed to show my face again

well it proved to be a selfish tought
i was actually scolded by one of my guides

who coincidently just came back from a holiday

and was tired and cranky

i would thank u now for doing that haha

if it wasnt for u,

i would still be just a stick

During the whole duration,

my team was the most cost efficient and nature loving

patrol,to prove it

all our outings was outdoors activities

such as hiking or simply making homemade bubbles

well not all of us

only and handfull

the rest was well....buzy....

well

i have nothing much left now

the past memories will remain just memories

well till then

The only memories i hae left...

Patrol outing at Penang Hill

My Fancy costume and my guides

Thanks for everthing.............

a very sick day

Recently
my school sukan tara has just passed
i as usual am proud of my sport hse that we
manage to top the event once again this year
it was no easy feat however,
the wu lien teh hse was close by and
half of my hse members was missing during
the second day of the event
which where me and the captain agreed
if we were to lose it will be on their head
but we won so their off the hook hahahaha

Anyways
after that
i manage to get my self ill
with sum sort of diesease
which was well what the doctor called
"coliegue" not sure if my spelling is rite
but dats how it sounds like
its supose to be sumthing like my collon
or part of my stomach start to twist turn and crap
all at the same time causing alot of pain
haha the doctor prescribe me with 3 medicine
and 100 plus....haha
well it aint plesent let me say dat

Later that day
the stomach problem started to cool down
den came high fever
the doctor this time prescribe 4 medicine
and ask me to continue taking the earlier meds
haiz........
u know what
i just broke my record of seeing doctors
this would be the 1st time i seen 2 doctors
in one day....swttt

Neway the fever went down
and then rashes started to come
ish i only wonder whats wrong with me

Just so u know
i am having probs with my key board
which keeps repeating the letter "i"
usually when i click on
W,E,R,U,O,P....
and believe me its dam anoying
dats why i havent been updating my blog
haiz

hope the problems fix soon
i shall post pictures on sukan saringan
next week once its done
and maby hari sukan too ok
haha for now visit stephens blog
theres plenty of pictures there haha
till then

Post-Examination-syndrome

Well
exams have come and go
have been kinda lazy to update my blog
after my exams really
well its cause of my horid exam marks
haiz all the effort in my study
and i am still not able to pull my self up
ish for those of you who are curious
my memory on my marks are blur
but its
1A1, 2 A2, the rest all B and C haizzz
and with no suprise
my add math is A 1....
well i have ONLY been working on it
truth to be told
sooo i didnt expect anything less than dat

Today
school was like any other
given exception on the pain i feel at all my joints
hahahaha
it hurts because i was teaching my juniors
how to play cakera and peluru yesterday
and well b4 u started teaching them
i actually trained for 1 hour 1st to make sure
what i tought was correct haha
Anyways
once school was over today
i coudnt wait to get home
and start my holidays hahaha
but well
the rapid was SOOOOO dam slow
it was like 1 hour later than usual today haizzz
while waiting at the bus stop
i manage to see a few people and sum funny stuff haha
i saw

-a boy digging his nose
-a boy basicaly dancing in his car...his mom wasnt please...
-theresa and her boyfriend on a hotwheel....siau eh hahahaha

well b4 i could see anymore
the bus manage to came.....FINALLLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
on the bus
for sum reason i felt really tired and went for
a short nap haha
when i woke up
the bus apparently have passed CGL and RESCAM
and beside me was a whole bunch of
CGL girls talking bout DOTA and TOWER DEFENCE...WTH!!
haha
base on what i eavesdrop i found out they were around form 4-5
....yes i know evesdroping is bad ok but well u cant really help it when
they are all around u rite hahahaha....

Well
my holidays are already kinda book seriously
My schedule is as below:

TMO
-go for Undang Undang kursus

Sun
-Go to Navnith birthday...AT INFI WEE!!!!!

Mon
-Non yet

Tues
-Have to go temple for buddhist society

Wed
-non yet

Thurs
-Visit ODTC camp and give advise

Friday
-Go visit 8th south keracut

Sat
-Take undang license

Sunday
-KO

Haha
well in between all those
i have loads to do tooo haha
oh well
anyways
have been working on some drawings recently
i was testing with shading and lines
the pictures havent gone too well yet
sooo i wont post it up haha
when its finis ' i will post it up haha
till then